My heart

Freedom in Christ is the most beautiful and "freeing" thing that one can experience. It's funny how the Lord works when you have those true encounters with Him to test your heart and your allegiance. Is my complete joy and peace in my heart truly grounded on the foundation of Jesus or is it like "sinking sand". I felt like a lot of 2009 was lived in "sinking sand". Conversations and situations would crush my spirit, allowing me to realize that I was trying to do a lot of things by my own strength. It is the worst way to live and I have been convicted and broken by this realization. I am excited to know that my hope, love, and unconditional acceptance occurs in and through the Lord Jesus Christ, and Him alone. I am excited to know that at this moment freedom has come to my heart in the beauty of my Savior. I am overjoyed with the fact that I am loved completely through Jesus Christ and that I can live in freedom because of Calvary. Though situations on earth arise and are hard to understand, I know that God uses everything to equip me for His story. "Preparing, repairing, restoring." This is where Beth Moore gave to us through Jesus last night. This is how He constantly equips us...by preparing, repairing, and restoring. I needed those words.
Hebrews 13:20-21
20May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, 21equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Know that I am in awe this day of His unconditional love and grace. He has forgiven me completely. Grace.
So, in 2010 I want this life to count for His glory. I want there to be a cost. I want to look back and see grace. I want to give grace fully and live in His truth. My worth and beauty is found at the cross not by any other person. I am grateful for that sweet and precious truth this day. So, I beg for your prayers on this journey. May this soul not be content with mediocrity or a life lived for self. May the Lord overflow this cup so it can be poured out each and every day. May I be dependent on no one else but the Father.
In that I do pray that the Lord will teach me what it looks like to be a wife of love and grace. That my conversations will be continually seasoned with grace. I pray that the Lord will allow me to show grace as a mother and that Eli would begin even at this early age to stand in awe and wonder of Jesus. I pray that he will see Jesus through the way I live. I pray that I will be a consistent friend that encourages each one in His truth. I want more Jesus in every relationship I am blessed to be a part of. Pray that I would seek Him more than anything else. May I be satisfied in nothing else but Him alone. May every action that occurs this year point to Jesus. These are overwhelming statements...but it is my heart and I wanted to just share a brief glimpse. Pray for me. Hold me accountable. Call me out. I need it. I desire it.
Thank you for listening today.....my heart is full.

In the light of Passion 2010 I leave you with their theme verse and memory verse one of this year.
Isaiah 26:8
8 Yes, LORD, walking in the way of your laws,
we wait for you;
your name and renown
are the desire of our hearts